Dad?!

Oh well, today is Father's Day, the day Ing Ni has finally come back to the rim of Bloggers. I should had been returning earlier, much more earlier tht it should be last week, on the auspicious 'Duan Wu Jie'. But yeah, I'd been defeated by the emotion hormones and laziness, where the former being fluctuating all the time dominating my entire body. One of the reasons of my procrastination is that I do not wish to start up a page in my world with negative emotion again, but well, seems I failed my own mission once more, coz today is not a good day either.

Why? For me, 70% I will say the guilt I felt for my bro. I don't know if I'm regarded as being nosey, but what I'm sure I'm not astute for telling Mum about what had been written in Ko's personal detail at the Internet. I'd made him being scolded by this trifle, My Gosh!!! And till now, I hadn't wished Daddy 'Happy Father's Day' yet, not because I'm shy, just that I'm contemplating the real meaning of today to either him or me.

I've been thinking what kind of dad he is. In the past, I would say that he was impeccable. But living under a roof for months, I realise that he is just a human, and my perspective towards the word 'DAD' has changed. Mainly the role they played. Ask about what unforgettable memories between my dad and me, I can say it loud: NONE. Throughout years, he was so committed in his career till the level where I saw negligence in our family. Of course he would argue that it was for the family. That's the reason why I've always nagged about the error in his balance. But at the same time, he is so loving. I know he loves me much, and I'm grateful about it. He tries to gratify me his children whenever he can, enduring the mistakes they have made. The main point why there's so much ambivalence in me today.

But well, since LOVE can conquer everything, just let this special day be special by all means.=)

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to ALL.

p/s: Will try to update religiously, as one of my friends has said. Will see then.