Defence

They say writing is the best psychotherapy, so that's why I'm writing now. This matter really took a toll on me by distracting my attention almost half of the day. This morning, Mum, you hurled at me because I went out buying a loaf of bread. In your perception, it was equalise to wasting $ and effort(especially after the recent fuel price hike). You thought I'm doing that just because I wished to satisfy my own gastronomic desire. The fact is: I'm doing things rationally.

There are myriad times when you ONLY thought of the 'short term' consequences or results instead of the 'long-term'. I felt unjust. I'm refuting here.

Your Argument: It's a waste of Petrol.
My Explanation: It was the same for those days where you purposely took me out to have breakfast. By abstract calculation, it's even waster in this case.

Your Argument: I did it for my own satisfaction. I like to do things on the basis which cause inconvenience to others.
My explanation: Utter WRONG. I THINK before I ACT. For a loaf of bread, it can sustain me for a week. The price for 13 pieces of bread is RM3.90, so when divided 3.9 from 13, it costs RM 0.30per piece. Usually, it takes 2 piece of them&a cup of coffee to fuel me, which equalise to approximately RM 1.20 per meal. Compared to the outside meal which costs us RM 4.50 per meal, we can actually save up to RM3.3 per meal.

For me, a loaf lasts a week (Precisely 6 days) . So if multiple RM1.20 by 6, it costs me RM 8.40 per week. Compared to the usual 3-days-outside meal, RM 4.50 times 3 plus minimal RM1.50 for other days gives us RM 18 for 6 days. This means we can save to a total of RM9.60. Other than that, the figure tells me that I can eat for another 6 days with the price I pay for the outside meal.

Your waspish remark: You're SO DISAPPOINTED with ME.
My modest remark: You SHOULD calm down and THINK deeper if you should feel that towards me.

Dear Mum, I knew you has been thrifty all the years because you want to save on our education.(From what you said). I'm not practising an extravagant life though.

Just like what Desperate Housewives had said, the world is full of good parents. Dad and Mum, I knew you guys are one of them, and I do feel grateful and appreciate on what I have. But at the same time, PLEASE be vigilant on your demeanor as it WILL ALWAYS affect us. Children are sentimental anyway.

I feel better now. Writing works.